noxnoctisanima ([info]noxnoctisanima) wrote in [info]atlantis_slash,

Fic: Bright Lights and Shadows, PG, Rodney/John

Title: Bright Lights and Shadows
Author: Nox
Fandom: SGA
Pairing: Rodney/John if you look for it.
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: Don't own it, not mine. No offence or liability intended
Summary: Rodney was like a planet, he drew people into his orbit; graduate students, students, colleagues; and spat them out again, often dazed, usually bitter, but always better scientists for it.



You didn’t spent time at the heights of theoretical physics, especially in America and not hear about Dr Rodney McKay. McKay was like a planet, he drew people into his orbit; graduate students, students, colleagues; and spat them out again, often dazed, usually bitter, but always better scientists for it.
 
Dr Samuel Derringer, first met Dr Rodney McKay before either of them held those titles. He’d thought Rodney was an ass, an admittedly brilliant one, but an ass none the less and had avoided him as much as possible.
 
Except with Rodney that was a hard thing to do, he’d be gesturing angrily at the servers in the cafeteria, informing them, and anyone in shouting distance that he thought putting lemon into his food was tantamount to an assassination attempt. He’d invade people’s labs at strange times of the morning and scrawl harsh criticisms across their whiteboards.
 
He was always there, always doing something loud and attention grabbing, something you couldn’t help but hear about on the college grapevine. Until he got his doctorate and all but disappeared from the field, he wasn’t working at any of the colleges, or any of the major private firms, they would have counted him as dead except for two things.
 
Firstly, he was still publishing, although sporadically and never releasing the brilliant next steps that Samuel could see were so obvious in all his work. The second reason was simpler, McKay was still drawing people in and spitting them out, every few months there would be bitter mumblings from this doctor or other who turned up with a few years (months, weeks, days?) missing from their CV and some uncomplimentary or even stranger, awed things to say about Rodney McKay.
 
Everything Samuel heard about McKay in these years fit with what he remembered of him as a grad student, brash, brilliant, abrasive and firmly ensconced in his ivory tower. Which is why the Rodney McKay he was seeing now was so unbelievable.
 
He did some things the same, he still snuck into labs and scrawled criticism over the equations, except now the proofs he used Samuel had never seen before but try as he might could not disprove. He visited more labs now too, the engineering labs, the chemistry labs, even the biology and botany labs, which he’d have never touched before but in which the criticism was just as cutting and just as right. The parts he could understand that is, Rodney’s handwriting was quite terrible but he was pretty sure that criticism in the engineering labs at least was in a foreign language and that there were a few Japanese Kanji in the chemistry labs.
 
He still badgered the servers in the cafeteria about his citrus allergy, but he called it the mess now and snarked at his military shadow about threats against his life and torment thrust upon him by someone called Mitchell.
 
The military shadow, that was something very different, the tallish man with wild black hair who followed McKay around in camouflage with a gun at his hip. But what really got Samuel was the fact that McKay didn’t seem to notice the gun at all and just went on badgering the soldier about his lack of brain power, though by the level of insults McKay had either mellowed or the man was very intelligent to truly brilliant.
 
Samuel wasn’t quite sure what to make of the new McKay, just as abrasive as the old one but if possible even more brilliant and with more idiosyncrasies.
 
Every few hours the military escort, who Samuel had discovered was called Lieutenant Colonel John Sheppard and was starting to suspect was something more than an escort, would hand McKay a music player, just as the man was getting twitchy and almost completely rude, and settle him into a corner with it until he calmed down. Sometimes McKay would just wear it all day, so quiet Samuel couldn’t even hear the slightest hiss from the headphones. He’d grabbed it from the desk one day, slipping the ear bud into one ear and frowning confusedly when all he could hear was the crash of ocean waves and the low hiss rumble of the sea pushing around a manmade obstruction.
 
McKay had always been slightly oblivious to people around him, to sounds, to movements, it was as if the world around him didn’t meet his standards so he was ignoring it. He wasn’t like that now, Samuel had missed it for days, still clinging onto his memories of McKay until he’d come up behind him quietly and startled him. McKay had spun, right hand groping at his side, the other pressing against his ear, Sheppard reacted to his movement and before Samuel could speak they were standing shoulder to shoulder, turned slightly so their right hands could move freely. Sheppard had relaxed once he recognised him and both he and McKay turned back to their work without so much as a flinch or evidence of embarrassment.           
 
Then there were the scars, the jagged slice down his forearm and the shiny new skin of healed burns on his arms. Almost more telling were the tiny numerous ones, the ones that showed not just one incident, but many, time and time again being injured.
None of this fit with the man Samuel had known.
 
He finally tried to confront it directly, he asked a question that would have had old Rodney laying forth for hours about his brilliance.
 
“So what is it that you do now?”
 
But this new Rodney had just smirked secretly.
 
“I save the universe.”
 
Colonel Sheppard coughed purposefully and Rodney whined.
 
“Can I at least get the galaxy then?”
 
Sheppard looked thoughtful for a while before nodding and Rodney turned back towards him.
 
“I save the galaxy. A lot.”
 
The only problem was that there was no humour in that statement, no jest and no exaggeration. Just truth.
 
Samuel was very glad to see Dr Rodney McKay return to wherever he had come from with his changes and his terrifying new self. 

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[info]adafrog

June 8 2008, 17:34:44 UTC 3 years ago

Brilliant. Totally brilliant. Loved the POV, and the changes in Rodney. Very understated.

[info]noxnoctisanima

June 9 2008, 02:37:32 UTC 3 years ago

*Blush* thank you, I really wanted to write Rodney without his voice gettign in the way, I'm glad to see it worked.

[info]slashfictionfan

June 8 2008, 19:46:47 UTC 3 years ago

Oh wow. I wasn't sure if it was going to like it - third person POV can be too wordy, too focused on explaining everything so it becomes directionless... But this was the total opposite of that. You kept a really light touch of Derringer's viewpoint, not laboring the point but providing great hints that we, knowing their history, can flesh out the back story ourselves. As I read it through I became interested in the Derringer character but only in relation to Rodney, and the glimpses of John were just right, both in terms of how a third person would see him and also given the relationship. Then Rodney's change over time, still keeping the core of him, as you know, whatever happens to him he'll always still be Rodney at heart. But you also show the subtleties that have changed.

Sorry to go on, but you can you tell I loved it, right?! *g*

Thanks for sharing.


[info]noxnoctisanima

June 9 2008, 02:40:48 UTC 3 years ago

*grin* *ego expands* I'm really glad you liked it. What I really like about 3rd person POV is that you get to see hints of something that you know, you get to feel that insider knowledge and it makes for fun reading. So it's nice to see I managed to make it work in my own story.

[info]tarlanx

June 8 2008, 20:52:16 UTC 3 years ago

I loved this outsider view of Rodney!

[info]noxnoctisanima

June 9 2008, 02:42:12 UTC 3 years ago

Thanks, I like the outsider view of Rodney, you don't end up caught up in Rodney's oddities and narcissism. It's easier to tell him from outside himself.

[info]argosy

June 8 2008, 21:42:00 UTC 3 years ago

Ooh, lovely. I really enjoyed this.

[info]noxnoctisanima

June 9 2008, 02:43:15 UTC 3 years ago

Thank you, I really enjoyed writing it.

[info]ex_kisa_haw

June 8 2008, 21:54:47 UTC 3 years ago

This is really neat. A really nice look at Rodney (and John) from the outside. Lovely.

[info]noxnoctisanima

June 9 2008, 02:46:13 UTC 3 years ago

*Blushes* thnak you, I wasn't sure I could write SGA well enough, there are so many excellent writers here. It's nice to know people liked it.

[info]rinsbane

June 8 2008, 22:34:10 UTC 3 years ago

I am such a sucker for outsider POV fics, and this fic is all the reasons why. Because you can make the central character, Rodney here, out to be more than we would ever get from inside him. How people react to a person can be so much more telling then what a person thinks about himself, and you ping that so hard here, so perfectly. There's nothing better than seeing reluctant respect for McKay, when that has to conquer everything else, when we have the irony of knowing more than the narrator does. You use the devices very effectively to build our anticipation and draw us in.

Uhm. So in other words, way cool! I love this. *g*

[info]noxnoctisanima

June 9 2008, 02:57:44 UTC 3 years ago

*Blush* Well. :D. That is probably the coolest thing someone has aid about my writing. Thank you. I'm glad you liked it.

[info]velvetmagras

June 8 2008, 22:37:14 UTC 3 years ago

Fab. Slashfictionfan said everything I feel about this, just right; so thank you, slashfictionfan and thank you noxnoctisanima for writing this wonderful story. Seriously fab.

[info]noxnoctisanima

June 9 2008, 03:02:54 UTC 3 years ago

I never expected these kind of reviews for this fic. But I am glad you liked it. Rodney is hard and i'm pretty pleased that I managed to write him well enough to appeal to you.

[info]asota

June 8 2008, 23:14:16 UTC 3 years ago

+<3

haha!! lovely!! i'm adding it to my memories!!
ASOTA

[info]noxnoctisanima

June 9 2008, 03:18:17 UTC 3 years ago

Re: +<3

Thank you :D

[info]highonstargate

June 9 2008, 00:37:49 UTC 3 years ago

That was lovly! I was actually looking for stories like this! Thank you!

[info]noxnoctisanima

June 9 2008, 04:03:38 UTC 3 years ago

Glad you found mine :D Feedback is always wonderful. :P

[info]copracat

June 9 2008, 02:34:41 UTC 3 years ago

That was great fun. Poor Dr Derringer.

[info]noxnoctisanima

June 9 2008, 04:08:50 UTC 3 years ago

*Grin* it was fun to write. And yes poor Samuel, having to deal with post-Atlantis Rodney, he's just a little different :D

[info]emma_in_oz

August 22 2008, 20:28:56 UTC 3 years ago

I like the outsider's pov. Interesting insights.

[info]noxnoctisanima

September 19 2009, 15:56:56 UTC 2 years ago

Huh, I must have missed this. Sorry :(

I'm glad you liked the fic, I apologise for how long it took me to respond.

[info]loriel_eris

October 12 2008, 13:36:12 UTC 3 years ago

Oh awesomesauce. So. Much. Love. Outside POV, when the POV is missing some/all of the details is one of my all time loves. And you executed it beautifully and perfectly here. Part of me wants to see more, more more of this verse, but this is perfect as it is. *flails*

[info]noxnoctisanima

October 13 2008, 09:05:23 UTC 3 years ago

*Blush* well don't I just feel somewhat awesome :D I'm glad you liked it. If you like outside POV's, if you haven't already read it I suggest Freedom's just another word for nothing left to lose http://www.kekkai.org/synecdochic/sga/freedoms_just_another_word.html it's freaking awesome.

[info]livrelibre

December 8 2008, 03:15:31 UTC 3 years ago

I liked this. Outsider POV is one of my favorite things and the ways Rodney has changed is another.

[info]noxnoctisanima

December 8 2008, 03:28:17 UTC 3 years ago

Thanks, it was a freaking amount of fun to write and I love the idea of people getting suprised by new!Rodney, so generally, after that ramble, I'm glad you liked it.

[info]ribbon_purple

July 25 2009, 07:27:45 UTC 2 years ago

Brilliant!

[info]noxnoctisanima

July 25 2009, 11:24:29 UTC 2 years ago

Thanks :D I loved writing this fic.

[info]cetpar

October 19 2009, 23:02:28 UTC 2 years ago

I really liked this.

[info]noxnoctisanima

October 20 2009, 04:49:32 UTC 2 years ago

Thanks :D

[info]venilia

October 20 2009, 00:33:35 UTC 2 years ago

Haha! Awesome! And Shepperd taking care of Rodney is so cute!



Don't mean to be picky -- especially with such a well-written story -- but this would benefit from a once-over by a beta.

[info]noxnoctisanima

October 20 2009, 04:52:48 UTC 2 years ago

Thanks, protective Shepperd is a lot of fun.

[info]margarks

October 20 2009, 06:20:40 UTC 2 years ago

Nicely done. This was a great OC POV.

[info]noxnoctisanima

October 20 2009, 07:39:19 UTC 2 years ago

Thanks, i'm pretty pleased with it.

[info]outsideth3box

October 20 2009, 17:10:15 UTC 2 years ago Edited:  October 20 2009, 17:10:33 UTC

Wow, really, really well done.

I don't know how I missed this before, but it's wonderful.

[info]noxnoctisanima

October 21 2009, 02:47:49 UTC 2 years ago

*Grin* It's always nice to have new people find an old fic. I'm glad you liked it

[info]deliranteverse

October 20 2009, 20:43:25 UTC 2 years ago

I agree. The new POV was very refreshing. I loved this fic. <3

[info]noxnoctisanima

October 21 2009, 02:47:05 UTC 2 years ago

:D Thanks, outside POV's are a favourite of mine.

[info]digital_sunday

November 1 2009, 11:28:34 UTC 2 years ago

I love to see the guys from an outsider's POV esp. someone who doesn't know the details of their life in Atlantis.

I really like your approach, all the changes Derringer sees in Rodney (and the things that stayed the same) and the conclusion he draws from it.

Loved the part where Rodney answered with the truth knowing that it's one truth that's just too impossible to be believed by outsiders.

Thank you.

[info]noxnoctisanima

November 1 2009, 11:36:15 UTC 2 years ago

Thank you! I loved writing this fic, partly because I agree with you in that I love 3rd person POV's.

[info]ceares

December 14 2009, 01:52:44 UTC 2 years ago

Wow! I loved this. The part about Mckay sneaking into labs and scribbling on other peoples whiteboards had me giggling, but the callback to it later, showing how much he's integrated all the parts of his team had me grinning and a little teary eyed. The outsider pov works extremely well in this, and paints a terrific picture of Atlantis Rodney.

[info]noxnoctisanima

December 14 2009, 03:27:47 UTC 2 years ago

Thanks :D I'm glad you enjoyed it.

[info]kirinin

December 14 2009, 04:00:12 UTC 2 years ago

I know it's been quite awhile since you posted this fic, but I had to thank you for its lovely brilliance. It's been awhile since an SGAfic has impressed me this much. Your fic, with its understated wham moments has made my night. :D

-K

[info]noxnoctisanima

December 14 2009, 04:01:41 UTC 2 years ago

*blush* thanks. I'm glad you enjoyed it.

[info]salamandersfire

December 14 2009, 12:33:28 UTC 2 years ago

Here from a rec on SGA Genre finders.

I liked this alot, an outsides view of the chnages in Rodney. Am intrigues to know where thi was wset nd if there's a larer story lurking someehere?

[info]noxnoctisanima

December 14 2009, 12:35:26 UTC 2 years ago

Thanks, i'm glad you liked it. No this isn't a part of a larger universe. It is a stand alone.

[info]wanted_a_pony

December 14 2009, 17:44:55 UTC 2 years ago

Oooohh, how did I miss this when you posted it?? But I'm here now, by way of [info]sgagenrefinders, & very happy I finally got to enjoy it! This is a brilliant use of 3rd person POV: the understated, relatively unemotional narration contrasts so wonderfully with Rodney's (unstated, but ever-so-loud "in the background" ;-) personality & voice. Dr. Samuel Derringer's memories & observations are ironic & poignant & sometimes humorous, & make you realize suddenly just how dangerous & scary & challenging Atlantis & the Pegasus Galaxy can be & how adaptable & tough & smart Rodney (& John, tho' Derringer doesn't know him) is to have met those challenges. Great fic--definitely going in my Memories! Thanks very much for sharing it....

[info]noxnoctisanima

December 14 2009, 17:48:02 UTC 2 years ago

Well thank you *Blushes*. It's the contrast you can get between those in the know (the reader) and those in the dark (the narrator) that i've always loved about 3rd person POV.

[info]clwilson2006

December 14 2009, 20:37:45 UTC 2 years ago

hi, also here from [info]sgagenrefinders
I adored this, so subtle yet so telling, thats our Rodney alright. I'm particularly fond of what is playing on Rodney's music player. A very nice touch.
Well Done and thankyou.

[info]noxnoctisanima

December 15 2009, 05:31:40 UTC 2 years ago

Thanks, I enjoyed writing this piece, i'm glad you enjoyed reading it.
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